A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.” Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
The passage above says it all for me. There is a season and a time for everything and for me, the season is changing.
I am writing to let you know that I will be stepping away from The Dreaming Café for an undefined period of time.
I cannot continue to try and balance taking care of my Mom, taking care of my family, working part-time, building a business and writing career and taking care of my own well-being all at the same time.
Balance is an unattainable illusion that just keeps you running in circles and beating yourself up for not succeeding.
And, I can’t do it anymore.
The decision to let go of The Dreaming Café, even if only temporarily, isn’t easy.
My inner critic taunts me with statements like:
“If you stop, you’ll never start again.”
“There are millions of blogs. If you stop now you’ll lose everything; three years of writing and building relationships down the tubes. You’ll have to start all over.”
“People will forget you.”
“You’re a failure. Just another blogger, writer wanna-be, who bites the dust.”
Stepping back in many ways does feel like failure. And, I am afraid that all of these fears will come true.
But, right now, despite these fears, The Dreaming Café it is a distraction and a burden.
Right now I have other responsibilities and other priorities, the main one being taking care of my Mom and supporting her during the final months of her life.
The truth is, if I have to, I will start over. I’ll take it one small step at a time, one day at a time, one post at a time, one relationship at a time.
It won’t be the first time I’ve had to start over and it may not be the last. I’m okay with this.
So this is goodbye, at least for awhile.
I want to thank all of you for allowing me and The Dreaming Café to be part of your life these past three years.
I wish you all the best and I hope I’ll have the pleasure of connecting with you once again in the future.
Peace, love and blessings,